One of the cons to having a countdown clock to the big day on your wedding website is that you know how far away it is until you say "I Do."
For months, the number was in the hundreds. It felt like we were crawling towards our wedding. The day seemed like some far off date and it was never going to get here.
And, then it displayed "99" and the reality of our approaching wedding hit me. We were in the double-digits and "this close" to being married. I'm getting married!
I felt a surge of what I initially thought was panic. My extremely long list of still "to-dos" popped into my head along with the items that we still have yet to work out. But this was just a flash in a pan. A small twinge of feeling overwhelmed before the excitement quickly snipped it in the bud.
I wasn't concerned about the wedding or what needed to be done. For me, it was a countdown to starting a married life with my partner. In less than 100 days, I was going to make vows for the rest of my life with someone I considered my partner. I was going to be a wife.
For me,I think the end goal of a married life was hidden from view behind designs of invites and centerpiece decisions. Maybe it's what can be labeled as "wedding zen" or learning the true meaning of marriage. But I feel that I am counting down towards more than a party but a new beginning.
I'm getting married.
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